A new week, a new beginning

I decided that I need to get more serious about my blogging.  Maybe share more about my everyday life, start a new site...who knows.  There's so much to write about that it's hard to decide where to start and what to share about yourself!!  My life is so full of ups and lot's of downs that determining which to write about is difficult to decide.

I am often called "pollyanna". . . in my world, everything is good. . . which gets me in trouble A LOT as I do try to see the good in anything.  This whole wanting to find an "at home job" is becoming more and more difficult and I think I'm going to have to give up on my hopes of staying home with my daughter and go do a night and weekend job.  The thought is HEARTBREAKING!

The last 19 months have been enjoyed, right down to EVERY second.  She has taught me so much about myself.  I love differently, I see my purpose, I see my strengths, and I love life despite all the negative situations in my life.  I honestly never wanted kids of my own.  I didn't think I could do it, I didn't think I could handle it.  My daughter has taught me the complete opposite.  We chose her name, Evelynn Jenae, because together it means, "Life" "God has answered."  I never really thought that her name would become so real.  It's amazing to see how far we've come and how much we've all changed because of her.  Our story is sooooo long that to tell you all of it, would mean you'd need to have time to read a book. 

It started in high school, 9th grade science class.  My now husband walked in the room and I instantly fell in love.  My heart told me he was the one I was going to marry.  I didn't know when, I didn't know how (as it later turned out, he was dating a girl I hung out with occasionally.)  We were both in relationships but we all hung out together.  I am not the type to make the first move or give out my personal information BUT I invited him to my graduation party.  He showed up and never left!!  He literally stayed the night with a couple other close friends.  It so happened that the next day, my boyfriend broke up with me via e-mail and his girlfriend broke up with him...so we hung out.  We dated for 6 years, got engaged for 2 and now been married for 4. 

Our family began when we decided that there will never be a "right" time to have a lil one.  More on this to follow as I begin to tell our story that leads to where we are today.